I'm sorry for deleting the thread. My hormones have been insane (I was nearly into the 2nd trimester) i haven't been on my meds ever since I verified I was pregnant and I'm still physically recovering nearly 2 weeks later.
So, in the future, I won't delete threads. I just ask that these things be handled differently from you all as well.
Onto better news: when I'm fully recovered, I'm still doing what I originally planned to and discussed with you all the last few threads before this shitshow so just be patient with me. Thanks for understanding & I love you guys.