>>5271 (OP)
Life is not an anthropomorphic entity that expects something from you. That's a copout. And whoever said that suicide has to be painful?
Also weekends are overrated. You can get whores any day of the week. And if you're looking for a meaningful emotional relationship I've got news for you: That's just your lizard brain lying to you, to coerce you into creating life. Don't do that: It's a crime.
tl;dr: If you're gonna mope about, do it right.